I can’t believe I haven’t written anything since last August, jeez. I’m not sure how old you’ll be when you’re finally able to read this blog, but I give you permission to get on my case about being lazy. BUT, I did start a bullet journal which is this thing some people in my generation are using to get organized, so hopefully I can get myself to write more than like what, twice a year?
The thing is that honestly I am CONSTANTLY thinking of things to write about, things I want to tell you, but I wonder how relevant it will be by the time you’re of age?
God you’re so smart. You’re a genuine genius in my book, but I think all parents think that of their children. And the thing is that, I hope by the time you’re in high school I feel like a dumbass next to you.
Trying to imagine you as a functioning human being is so wild to me. Me and dad are always talking, and like, every time you do literally ANYTHING we are just blown away.
For example, when you were:
0 m/o: “Wow, one day she’ll be able to look at us.”
3 m/o: “WOW she can sit, one day she’ll be walking can you believe that?”
9 m/o: “OMG LOOK AT HER RUN SHE’S SO STRONG.”
1 y/o: “SHE DOESN’T STOP BABBLING WOO MAYBE SHE’LL HOLD CONVERSATIONS SOON.”
1.5 y/o: “She can hold her own bottle and eat snacks all by herself this kid is self-sufficient.”
2 y/o: “She can walk, talk, sing, dance, she’s half potty-trained this kid can do ANYTHING.”
3 y/o: “ONE DAY SHE’LL BE ABLE TO GO TO THE BATHROOM BY HERSELF HOW WILD IS THAT??”
Literally. Everything. You do. Just amazes us.
And you’re only 3!
I’m currently trying to teach you how to write.
Just thinking about you as a high schooler makes me want to cry. That’s really the time when you’ll likely start to solidify a personality and start making stronger relationships and connections with others.
Who knows where technology will be at that point in time?
What made me think to write this is that the other day, my laptop broke down and I was thinking about how I’ll need to save to get another one. Your dad told me to get a brand I’ve never used before, and I thought, “Ugh I’m not used to that interface I’d rather not.”
But then I laughed at myself, ’cause that sounds like something an old person would say.
I’m not afraid of progress, but I am definitely lazy.
By the time you’re a teenager, you’ll be exposed to so much technology and knowledge I won’t even be able to wrap my head around it.
And I hope you’ll teach your ol’ ma.
The thing is that, humans have survived on this planet for thousands and thousands of years, and NOT because things have stayed the same. We thrive as a species because we constantly grow and learn, and we spread that information and we advance. Every generation knows more than the last, each generation teaches as much as it can and then they pass the baton of advancement to their children.
That’s just good ol’ fashioned natural selection.
I know for a fact that you’ll surpass me in every way before I can blink. And I look forward to it. I have so many hopes and dreams for you, and I’ll support you with everything I have and everything I am.
I ask you to live your life open-minded. To always be curious, and to never think you know everything about anything. Be able to admit you’re wrong when you are, and learn what is true. Don’t let your emotions cloud facts. Live logically but not coldly. Have faith in your heart but keep your eyes open. Be smart.
Watching you grow makes me feel old. I’m a pretty young mom, but you’ve got me feeling old as hell. You’re the shiny new gadget and I’m just the outdated model. When you finally read this, feel free to tell me how old I am.
Just know that I love you, and no matter how far ahead of me you run, I’ll always have your back.