Guess what??? You started pre-school/daycare last week!!! And not coincidentally I started a new job as the receptionist at that daycare.
Young student moms gotta do what they gotta do.
Anyways, this time last year I was working 2 jobs, doing a full load of classes, and taking care of you. Safe to say that was a rough time in my life.
This time I’m working one part time job and taking less classes, and I get to take you to work with me! (Technically speaking.)
Lately I’ve been down about this impending sense of change. I’m going to graduate soon, and I need to hunt for my first real adult job. You’re starting pre-school now and sooner than later you’ll be in Kindergarten. I’ve been a little overwhelmed lately thinking that nothing is going to be as slow-paced or as relaxed ever again, and everything feels so rushed.
You are so attached to me. Like honestly pretty crazy attached. Like I can’t even leave the house without having someone hold you back ’cause you’ll scream at me not to leave. I almost figured this would happen, since there was my winter break and now I only have night classes so it’s just me and you during the day. And now that I work at the school, you keep popping your little head out to follow me all day.
I know I’m probably rushing in my head, but seriously it all feels like life is rushing to a climax right now. Grad, job, you in school, etc.
I usually write blog posts to teach you something or let you know what’s going on with you right now while you’re still young, but this time I’m really just venting.
I’m gonna stop here before the rambling gets too bad. I considered deleting this, but honestly it’s good for you to see that mommy isn’t quite so articulate and put together. Ever.
EDIT: I meant to proofread and publish this on February 28 but I forgot. Whoopsie.
So anyways, since I’m reading over it now might as well add on.
The other day I dropped you off for your first day of preschool without me. Literally everyone was trying to bribe you with cookies, coloring, TV, phone games, anything. But you were attached to me and refused to let go or stop crying.
So finally it took 2 teachers holding you back to let me escape. I was really worried that you’d have a hard day, but 10 minutes later I got a message from your teacher. She sent me a selfie of the two of you smiling and playing, and she said just 5 minutes after I left you stopped crying. After another 5 minutes you were ready to go into your classroom and it was alright.
I always thought you were clingy (and you are) but I guess I am too. I’m always thinking you might not be ready for something, when the truth is actually that you’ve long been ready, and I don’t want to hold you back.
I know you’re just going through a transition phase, but one day you’ll have your own friends and you’ll be comfortable heading off to school every day and you probably won’t even want to see me when you get home.
At least that’s what I was like for a while lol.
But that’s the way it goes. Right now you’re still a mama’s girl, but you’ll grow up and seeing you independent will be a breath of fresh air.