There are a lot of reasons people mom-shame hardworking mothers. There are a lot of reasons moms think they’re not good enough. When it comes to rearing children, someone – regardless of how much experience they actually have – always has something to say.
I’ve been a mother for almost 4 years now. But I’ve felt the fierce love in my heart ever since I found out I was pregnant. I know I don’t know anything, but I know this much is true.
When we go out shopping, and you want a toy but I don’t want to spoil you with another I say no. You throw a fit and people stare and you say it’s not fair, but I don’t think I’m a bad mom.
When it’s bed time and you ask me to leave all the lights on but I turn them off even though you don’t like the dark, I don’t feel like a bad mom.
When a curse word accidentally slips out of my mouth and into yours, I don’t feel like a bad mom.
When you begged me to stay home from school because you said you weren’t ready, no matter how hard you cried and clung to me I still cast you into that classroom and walked away without looking back. And I didn’t feel like a bad mom.
There are a lot of things I know are necessary. I do a lot of things that people cast judgement on but I know that everything will be okay. But we’re entering a completely new chapter in our lives together, and I haven’t been feeling so great.
When you ask me where daddy is and why you don’t see him anymore, and there’s not a damn thing I can do to comfort you because you’re too young, I feel like a bad mom.
When I’m so depressed that I don’t have the strength to get out of bed in the morning, no matter how much you pull on me and beg, I feel like a shit mom.
When you ask me to play with you or watch you do something but I’m too tired or don’t have the time, I feel like the worst mom.
I’m doing everything I can to be better than I was, and I’m working hard so that I’ll be better than I am. I never dreamed I’d end up a single mother but everything I do is for you.
I don’t feel worthy of being your mother a lot of days, but you need me and I’m here for you. I don’t know how bad I am but I want to get better for you.